The Purple Path

Things To Be Thankfull for - Feb 2010

2010-02-19T23:16:00.000Z

Having a roof over my head and food on my table. In a recession like we've been having this small blessing is one we can't take for granted.
My Mum and Dad - even though I've not been living with them for a few years now I'm having a blot of home-sickness :(
My two big hairy doggies.
Employment - again with the economy how it is having employment is a blessing. Also having employment you enjoy is even better.
The Internet and my laptop - with out it most of the time I'd feel completely cut off from the outside world.
My Car - it's a beaut and it gives me a sense of freedom nothing ever has before.
The rabbits I see on my car journey every morning - it's been great watching them grow up over the past year and I'm looking forward to seeing more offspring this spring.
A warm bed on a cold night.
The warm heart and caring nature of my significant other - I don't know what I could ever have done to deserve such love and kindness.
I can now talk to my sibling on the phone and have a proper conversation. Here's to growing up.
Blog followers - last year I had 10 I now have 20 according to my dashboard - although I'm not sure many still follow after my very very long MIA period.

Well that's it for now... I'm sure I could think up more but I'll leave it at that for now. I've achieved more on my list this year so hopefully that means I'm looking at not taking things for granted as much as I usually do! Step in the right direction me thinks.

Spring is Comming!!!

2010-02-19T22:18:00.001Z

There are snow drops everywhere, the crocuses/croci are springing up from between the leaves, buds are growing, birds are beginning to sing louder. I've even seen the beginnings of daffodils poking their heads out of the ground in places where we never see daff's before we're nearing the end of March.

Life is coming back to the earth.

Soon the winter will be over and my feelings of grogginess and lethargy will lessen. Waking up in the morning wont feeling like climbing Everest. I might even start feeling like I want to leave the house in the mornings rather than feeling like only going because I feel I don't have a choice.

Soon..

Purple People

2010-02-08T20:00:00.000Z

http://www.purplepeople.com/purplog/

These guys look realy interesting! Check them out, tell me what you think!

Am I A Fluffy Bunny?

2010-02-08T18:59:00.003Z

Over the past..days? weeks? months?... well the last while anyway... I've been thinking about what is termed "The Fluffy Bunny".

Many people seem to lump using crystals and other "new age" techniques, being all about the doing only good and other such things in with the fluffy-bunnyism. Many of this reminds me of myself and I'm left feeling a little guilty for it.

The question is why should I feel guilty about it? What's wrong with being a "fluffy bunny"? I use crystals because I can feel something in them. I will only do good with spell craft and go to long ends agonising about this because I feel that spirituality is something I want in my life to make me a better person. Yes I want to get closer to nature and the force that flows through it all, but what's the point if it doesn't make me a better person?

So yes... I am probably a fluffy bunny... hand me my ears and my pom-pom tail! And while your at it tell me.... why does this make me any less a valid pagan than you?

Hibination - I'm sure that should be hibernation.

2010-02-07T20:00:00.003Z

Interesting thing, it seems the most visits to this blog are links from google searching for hibination. Yes that is an awful typo, I can't say I'm surprised that I missed it, spelling not being my forte and all. But I'm surprised that I'm getting so many hits, One night I had four with in an hour.

Anyway, I'd love to hear from anyone who found this blog via this search as to what they were looking for.

As far as hibernation goes this year. I really feel like I am, I just can't wake up in the mornings and I feel sleepy and strange all day. If it weren't for big piles of work to do I think I'd be sleeping all the time right now.

Still it's my own fault, I've not been using my light box, and most nights I feel too tired to go to bed early (I know that sounds backward but I'm sure there are those out there that know what I mean).

Maybe when I've won the lottery (hah hah) I can spend a fortnight in a luxury hotel only waking up to eat and to soak in a bath / hot tub / swimming pool. Until then... roll on Spring!!!!

Things to be Grateful / Thankful For Feb 09

2010-02-06T20:00:00.000Z

Inspired by Jax's slot on The Dark Side of Fey

1. Podcasters

Darkly Fey

Sparrow and Mojo

2. Pagan Musicians

Damh the Bard

The now disbanded Chalice and Blade

Spiral Dance

Gaia Consort

Omnea

3. Family

My Parents

My Sibling

My Grandparents both on this plane and those that have moved on.

4. My Partner (included in "My Family" but deserves a point out side)

This person makes me complete - I can't tell you how in love I am. Many, many years of being together and I still can't believe how lucky I am.

5. Animal Companions (included in "My Family" but deserves a point out side)

My dear dog

My darling Cats - Especially the wonky one which is recovering so well even if he is lazy and expects to be carried everywhere

My rescued bird which flew the nest some months ago *sniff*

6.First Signs of Spring

Leaf buds on trees shrubs and bushes.

The first crocus I spied just over a week ago.

The light coming earlier each morning

7. Blog Followers

I have 10 *shock*

I can't say how much it means to think that my thoughts might be interesting to others.

I love the comments left by others. It may not be why I do this but it really lifts my spirits!

8. My body

I think I've been very ungrateful for this in the past. But right now I can see how much of a miracle it is to be able to feel, to smell, to hear, to see, to walk, to run, to hold something in my hands.

9. Friends

Those that I've met in real life, online and both! I just wish I was more worthy of them sometimes - still all that's changing, I am a new and evolving person.

This was written last year and never posted, not much has changed.

My pets are now gone, but more are in my life.

The bit about being a new and evolving person never really materialised. I've not long been making the selfsame promise to my self that I will be better this year and I'll get in touch and stay in touch with those that matter to me. The fact that I had said that to myself last year and not only failed but forgot I'd even made that promise makes me sad and doubtful about my chances for this year. But I'm not going to let that win!
Talking about spring coming makes me hopeful that winter may soon begin to end - that would make me very happy

I Know... I dropped off of the face of the earth... again!

2010-02-05T20:00:00.000Z

I'm sorry.

Let me start with my first disappearance...

Not long after my last post in Feb 2009 our dog was taken ill with an aggressive cancer. Only a few weeks later we had lost him.
As we had some time to get used to it we had discussed what we would do when we lost him and so not long after we added to our family in the form of one and then another
friendly dogs.

During the months that followed grieving, training our new dogs, mountains of work and fighting the recession kept me stupidly busy.

In November I found Feithline (previously known as Darkly Fey) had begun a new pod cast along with a spiritual practice course. With the Celtic year being new I thought this would be a wonderful time to begin something such as this.

Unfortunately within a month the Christmas rush had hit in the office and that meant the Spirits Cast course had to take a back seat. Not only that but over the festive period I lost my two wonderful cats, so the year ended in more grief. (No, no more additions to the family as yet)

Well now the New Years madness seems to be lessening so in the next few weeks and months I may have some time to dedicate to myself, my spirituality and my blogging.

We can only wait, see and hope.

Vegetarianism

2009-02-09T15:30:00.001Z

I've always been a meat eater. Only once toying with the idea back in my teens when it was fashionable to be vegetarian.

I strongly believe that we humans are strict omnivores. That we need meat in order to stay healthy - it's part of our makeup.

However recently I've been feeling that I can't eat meat. Not that I shouldn't, but that I can't. I feel guilty, I feel wrong, I feel like..... well that I can't.

So I've decided while I am not going to go vegetarian I'm going to cut meat from my diet as much as possible. I'm switching to tofu and quorn where I once wouldn't think of reaching for chicken or pork.

I'm wondering if this could be to do with an awakening I seem to be going through. I think I'm feeling more in touch with things. My animal empathy seems to be on an all time high. I can feel the world more sharply. I'm aware of the grass, trees and other plants outside my window even when I'm facing the other direction. I've never been a dog person but recently I just can't walk past a dog with out a big fuss.

Another thing... birds don't seem to scare from my presence as much as usual. Or am I just noticing them more? The robin in the garden sang to me and my partner this morning (well probably swearing at us as we hadn't got the bird seed out) I felt totally blessed, and a male blackbird sat and looked at me from the fence only 3 foot away as I walked to my car.

Fighting Hibination

2009-01-30T14:00:00.002Z

I have SAD. Not I am sad, I have SAD.
In fact right now I don't feel sad in the slightest. But I am very tired, and tired of being tired, and tired of not wanting to go anywhere, see anyone, or do anything.
I feel like I'm in a never ending battle, just to break out of the shell that I'm in. That's a great part of why I've not been blogging, and for those who know me on any other forums or even in real life why I've not been about anywhere.
My body feels like it's moving through treacle, sometimes even just typing feels like an effort.
I realised how bad I was getting yesterday when I was using a soap that I know will trigger dermatitis on my hands rather than lean over about a foot or two to reach my all natural, anti-reactive soap. It just felt like it was too much effort.
I keep forgetting things, both important and not important.
Why do I feel like this? What can I do to get my self out of it?
I have started with healthy eating - I'm getting much more vitamins and minerals than I used to - I keep forgetting to take my vitamin capsules though. lol
I have every intention of exorcising.... it just hasn't seemed to have been realised yet.
I have to start using my light box again - I just keep making excuses to myself why I can't turn it on when I have it sat on my desk where I'm working.
My whole body and soul seems to say I should be hibernating - somewhere cosy, somewhere dark, somewhere away from people to see and places to be and things to do.
Anyway.... rant over.... Any suggestions - please.... let me know!

Experiencing Deity

2009-01-28T15:13:00.005Z

Darkly Fey from The Dark Side of Fey has asked for thoughts on Experiencing Deity so with out further Adoo..... lol.....

On the topic of Experiencing Deity:

My usual visualisation is a simple field or paddock with poppy's and other wild flowers wave in the breeze, there are rabbits and squirrels hopping about while starlings and sparrows flit from the solitary tree to the floor and fly in circles, the sun shines down warming the plants and animals while fluffy white clouds rain in the distance.

This is very different to the experience I had some weeks back while meditating after getting some advice from Sparrow and Mojo of the Wigglian Way. I found my self walking in a castle or a cathedral that was very old and worn the sandstone having been worn away through time. I became aware of a bright sliver-white spray of light that although was incredibly bright did not hurt my eyes or dazzle me - it moved off and I felt compelled to follow being beckoned by a presence that was warming and gentle.

I followed this presence through an archway and up a spiral stair case spiralling clockwise, so many turns I had no chance of counting. She, for a felt it was a she, led my out into a long corridor, with archways on the left and as I emerged she was no longer present but there was a spray of golden yellow, masculine light. He led me on a merry dance through the arches always keeping just out of my view. round and round in circles but this time anticlockwise... bringing a balance to the clockwise of the lady of white. Having unwound my path he stopped and appeared in the centre of the room. Behind the pillar we had been chasing around was a mattress on the floor - soft, heavy, welcoming. And appearing on the wall - a huge wood fire in a fire place a tall as a man. I heard or felt a voice as if in a dream "Child, you may come here as often as you wish, any time you feel the need of solace or comfort this place will be here for you to rest"

I lay till I felt refreshed and then made my way back to the present... feeling warmth, love and understanding.

This may be the wild imaginings of my tired mind but I felt a presence there with me. I have felt spirits before, none that I would say were deity, but whether these two were of the divine or not - it's the closest I've ever come.

http://darklyfey.com/
http://darklyfey.com/forum/the-powers-that-be/experiencing-deity/

Happy Wednesday!

2009-01-21T13:03:00.006Z

Hello!
I know, I know, I've not been blogging - I've been away, ill, busy and feeling the need to hibernate! But I'm back... I can't make any guarantees as to how often I will post but I haven't abandoned my blog - oh no!!

I hope you out there had a very happy Yule, Christmas, Gregorian New Year and any other holidays and celebrations you may have had since I seemed to drop off the face of the Earth.

I have a lot of things I've been thinking about and hopefully I will be able to share things with you in the not too distant future.

What I want to talk about today is the American inauguration. Mr President Barack Obama. There are an awful lot of wonderful things about this man by the seems of things and I am totally hopeful for the future. Oh and 'yay' at the goodbye to Bush. But there are a couple of things about the inauguration that are not so positive to me though.

Firstly

"We are a nation of Christians and Muslims, Jews and Hindus - and non-believers."

Are those all the religions there are in America? I thought I had Pagan brethren over there.... sorry my mistake!

Maybe, being a Brit, it's none of my business. But I know I was upset and angered by that and I know it would have upset me more if I was an American. I am hoping it was nerves or an unfortunate case of cramp that made him make the omission - we shall see.

Secondly:

I thought Americans believed in separation between church and state. If this is the case why was the ceremony so heavily God and Christian orientated? Is it always like this? Having never seen an inauguration before I have no way of knowing. I know I certainly had no reason to want to watch or even think about Bush being sworn in.

I could go into the possible negatives further.... H Clinton appears to be a tactical move to appease certain voters (possibly the same one McCain was with Palin), and many of his behind the scenes folks don't exactly seem to embody the change he was offering.

Still, that's not that this is to say I'm not inspired by him. On the whole though I have to say I found his frank, truthful realism very reassuring - I have hope for the US and for the impact they have on the rest of the world. Well done America for making such a good choice and lets hope that all who believe in the man (myself included) are right and he's as good as he seems.

On final thing I want to say....... From the election over there and throughout the inauguration process it has been mentioned that Martin Luther King's dream his now been realised. Surely that, whilst we are definitely on the way to getting there, that dream will only be realised when we have an African American President of the US or a Prime Minister of the UK and no one even thinks to mention it?

I've Been Tagged!

2008-11-12T14:37:00.006Z

Well - I've been tagged for the first time by Mrs B from Confessions of a Pagan Soccer Mom

1. I have a massive fear of baked beans and tinned tuna. Even so I really like raw tuna in sushi!

2. At the moment I write this I am having cravings for scallops and Spam fritters - an not not the nice delicate flavoured, healthy, lightly seared shell fish the big fat greasy potato fried with a coating of batter that you get from the chippy! Which is made worse by the fact I am on a weight management plan which appears to be working. It's just on the principle of making small changes to diet and exercise that you can keep with for the rest of your life. I've not lost a huge amount but I'm going in the right direction and my waist has already lost an inch and a half. Shame I'm not yet feeling it really.

3. When I was little I used to run out of the bathroom after flushing the toilet at night convinced that if I didn't the "evil witches" would find me by the sound! (I still don't like flushing the loo at night when every one's in bed)

4. When I get stressed I can't stand standing on the cracks in the pavement or getting "in the way" of sharp corners.

5. The parts of my body I like most are my thumbs and my feet. Even though I have really odd little toes.

6. I have a mug obsession..... yes that's right, unlike most women who have things about shoes, handbags, etc I just can't resist a cute Mug! I also have different mugs for different moods.

7. The songs Grace Kelly by Mika and Basket Case By Green Day remind me of my teenage years. Although I know they made me who I am today I certainly don't believe your schooldays are the best years of your life!

I'd like to tag:
The Holy Dark from The Paramedic Brat
Both Mama Kelly and Lady Rose at 2 Witches Blog
Celestite at A Pagan Tapestry
Erin from Memoirs of a Solitary Witch

and I'll think of anyone else at a later date!

Friday Fill-In

2008-11-07T10:44:00.006Z

1. My blueprint for success includes being someone else ;).

2. An uncoloured toffee apple was the last candy I ate.

3. The best facial moisturizer I've ever used is Creme de La Mer (I wish I could afford it right now).

4. Walking and meditaion can be good therapy.

5. I'd like to tell you about things as I think of them.

6. My intellegence and thinking skills are my strongest characteristic.

7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to Meditating in front of the fire, tomorrow my plans include doing the laundry and baking and Sunday, I want to do some tarot study!

Cleverest children 'grow up to be Green'

2008-11-07T10:24:00.003Z

THE brightest children go on to vote Liberal Democrat or Green, according to a survey.
The study by Edinburgh University researchers has found that childhood intelligence is linked to voting preferences and political involvement in adulthood.
The study – which looked at voting patterns in the 2001 general election – found that those with higher IQ ratings were more likely to vote Lib-Dem or Green in an election.
The survey – including cognitive tests at ages five and ten – was followed up with a study of voting habits at 34.
Those who voted Green had an average IQ of 108.3, with Lib-Dem voters just behind at 108.2. Conservative and Labour voters were further behind – with scores of 103.7 and 103.0 respectively, while voters for Welsh nationalist Plaid Cymru scored an average of 102.5. Scottish National Party voters had an average IQ of 102.2. The research also showed that British National Party voters had the lowest average intelligence – scoring just 98.4. Non-voters were found to have an average IQ of 99.7.

Scavenged from:
http://news.scotsman.com/latestnews/Glenrothes-byelection-Activists-flood-in.4652904.jp

I had to share this with you as I felt very smug if I'm honest - knowing that my IQ (117 to 127 when not taking my dyslexia into account) and my Lib-Dem leanings are possibly connected.
The only thing I'm not quite so smug about is my partner (who I've always hoped I was a little smarter than) votes Green - could this be evidence of his higher intelect? ;)

I Don't Want To De Subjected To Your Music!!!!

2008-11-05T19:53:00.004Z

What is it with some Bloggers, My Spacers, Pagan Spacers etc?

Why do they feel that just because we are looking at their page that, no matter how good or bad their music taste is, that we want to be subjected to a barrage of their taste of music?

I am fed up to the back teeth of going on various web pages to be blasted with mind numbing, teeth gnashing, infuriating noise!

I don't care what you listen to! I don't care how "good" your music taste is! I really really don't want to hear it! It just makes me want to get off of your site/page and stops me caring what you have to say or who you are!

I'm fed up with the noise! I'm fed up with it being IMPOSED on me!!!!! GAH!

A Late Friday Fill-In

2008-11-05T15:36:00.006Z

1. My favorite food seasoning is Green Tabasco.

2. A two-stroke engine is music to my ears.

3. Lucky is waking up alive and well every morning.

4. The truth is something I take very seriously.

5. Many people don't realise how lucky they are.

6. Fair trade ground coffee was the last thing I bought at the store.

7. And as for the weekend, Friday night I looked forward to relaxing with my partner, Saturday my plans included My First Samhain Ritual and Sunday, I wanted to Sleep (But I worked instead)!

Samhain Introductions

2008-11-03T13:17:00.005Z

Well this Samhain I formally introduced myself to the divine and the ancestors.

I set up a little alter in the cosy sitting room, and asked my partner to stand guard so the dog didn't career in, eat my biscuits and swipe all my kit off of the altar (come coffee table) while I had my bath. I bathed in organic callendula petal and neroli oil sea salts and callendula petal and nerioli oil soap. Feeling thoroughly cleansed and refreshed I made my way back down the the siting room. The room had a completely different feel to it to normal - my partner had felt he couldn't change the lighting or put the TV on or anything - he knew the atmosphere had changed and it all ready felt like we were no longer alone.

As we are truly entering the dark time of the year I have swapped my usual white rock salt for a black sea salt - it felt very fitting as my earth element at Samhain.

I invited in the elements, requested their guidance and protection then called the ancestors and the divine. I could feel the gathered energies and presence within the room. I called out to them, that they may know me and meditated - I have no idea how long but I do know it ended up a very late night. After meditating asked for guidance on my path via my Tarot cards (perhaps more of that in a later post) and then shared some food and drink and said my farewells.

I had one of the best nights sleep ever afterwards and two days later I still feel refreshed and loved.

I think I could say my first ritual went well.

The Podcast Awards - Support your fellow pagans.

2008-10-23T15:02:00.003+01:00

As I hope you all know The Wiglian Way has been nominated for a podcast award.

You can vote once per day for the Wigglian Cheiftains at http://podcastawards.com/

I've made my vote! Why not pop along and make yours?

Good Grief - I have to share this!!!

2008-09-05T14:10:00.003+01:00

Deadly spider in Co-op bananas

A cashier felt the hairs on the back of her neck stand on end after discovering a deadly South American banana spider nestling in a bunch of bananas.

The highly-venomous arachnid was spotted by Kate Whitmore, 25, as she unpacked a box of fruit to put on display at the Co-op store in Wayfield Road, Chatham, Kent.
The palm-sized eight-legged creature, otherwise known as Phoneutria nigriventer, ranks alongside the black widow and funnel-web as one of the world's most dangerous spiders.

Recalling the close encounter during her Monday night shift, Ms Whitmore said: "I lifted the lid off the box, ripped the bag open and in the very first bunch I noticed something.
"I picked the bunch up, held it close to my face and thought, 'What is that?' It wasn't a very nice spider."

After alerting her supervisor, the shop was promptly closed while the RSPCA was called out. They were advised to keep the spider contained and not approach it until the animal collection officer arrived.

Mother-of-two Ms Whitmore said: "He lifted the separate bunch off with leather gloves and put it in a box which had a separate container. He asked to borrow a pen and as he nudged it to try to move it into the container, the spider reared up, hissing and put its fangs out. It made us all jump."

RSPCA officer Anthony Pulfer said: "It was very aggressive and trying to go for me when I was putting it in the box. It was really jumping around and trying to attack me."
Ms Whitmore added: "We had customers coming in saying, 'We'll kill it for you, it's only a spider'. We thought, 'If you knew exactly what it was like you wouldn't'."
The spider was eventually taken away to be put down.

Taken from http://uk.news.yahoo.com/pressass/20080905/tuk-deadly-spider-in-co-op-bananas-6323e80.html

last.fm

2008-08-15T16:34:00.003+01:00

I have truly discovered last.fm

This site allows you to listen to music and recommends new artists based on your music taste.

I am finding new Pagan artists that I love.

Not only can I listen to my favourites, such as Chalice and Blade, Spiral dance and Libana, while I'm in work, I've discovered Damh the Bard, Omnia, Emerald Rose, and Three Weird Sisters among others.

If you're on last.fm don't forget to check out my group Witchy Pagans I'm hoping to get together a group of people who have a similar taste in pagan music.
Hope to see you there!

Why Purple?

2008-07-23T19:04:00.005+01:00

Yet another post days or weeks in the making

Purple, to me, is a colour of leaning, of magic, of personal growth, of beauty, of richness (not just monetary), of inner calm.

The purples and violets are my favourite colours some thing draws me to them.

My favourite crystal, and the one I first bought when learning about crystal healing for the first time, is amethyst.

Is my Aura purple? No - my aura is blue/green (or at least it used to be) but my heart is.

Purple is associated with the crown chakra and thus our connection with the cosmos.

Emily Gems says:
Purple is the color of good judgment. It is the color of people seeking spiritual fulfillment. It is said if you surround yourself with purple you will have peace of mind. Purple is a good color to use in meditation
http://www.crystal-cure.com/purple.html
I think that has a lot of truth for me within it!

And No..... nothing to do with the "purple haze"!

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Purple

About This Blog and Me - Attempt Two

2008-07-23T14:51:00.001+01:00

As I had to post before the last one was finished I thought I'd try again!

This blog is all about my journey along my path and where it takes me (Or I take it).

It is for me to see where I have come from and what I have learnt and it's to share that with anyone who's interested or maybe just nosey. It's about my emotional and spiritual growth. About my quest for wisdom and knowledge.

I feel a call to nature and healing. I want to follow in the footsteps of the wise woman and midwife. I want to use herbs, energy work and magic for good, for healing and helping people. It is in may nature help.

I hope I will be able to document each landmark I pass and use this to understand my self better and help me with where to go next. This may and up as a long list of questions or a collection of experiences - I'll find out when I get there.

A little about me:

I'm in my mid 20s and already feeling old. I was brought up an Anglican christian but it was never forced on me - I just happened to have a Christan family and went to an Anglican school.
I think this might have something to do with why I occasionally will blaspheme with a christian slant. I have also been know to use "Gordon Bennett" and "Blooming Nora" but that doesn't mean I believe in them either! ;)

I have interests in:

Healing using herbs, crystals, energy work and naturopathy
Photography and photo editing
Computer games (PC mainly but a little PS3 now)
Paganism and witchcraft
Midwifery
Reading (factual stuff about what I've put in this list and Fantasy)

Not quite sure what else put put here so I'll post it and I'll see if I have anything to add later and I'll add it to a new post (this post has been in progress for at least a fortnight of lunch times - good grief I'm slow)

Any comments are appreciated - it's be nice to know if there's anyone out there reading this and anything that gives me something to think about is always good.

My Poor Love!!!

2008-07-07T11:16:00.003+01:00

I just cannot concentrate today!

My cat is having his leg amputated after a cancerous bone tumour broke/dislocated his elbow joint.

The vet seems pretty positive that he will make a full recovery but I suppose we'll see after the surgery. They haven't been able to find out if it's spread at all but I suppose we'll find out in time.

I am miles away and I feel so useless!!! I'm not versed in magic as yet and I have never learnt distance healing. Even if i were next to him I don't think I could get into the mindset to heal anyway!

Please - if anyone is out there reading this - send love, healing and positive vibes! Anything you can do I will be grateful for!

About This Blog and Me - Attempt one

2008-07-03T13:22:00.007+01:00

The unfinnished post below was written this afternoon and saved before I had to dash out! as I left my office the rain started. When I got the where I was going it began to thunder. When I left the sun was shining brightly and the birds were singing in the trees. Some times I wonder if my thoughts are listened to!!!

I suppose an explanation of this blog may be in order should anyone stumble upon it!

This is a log of my wanderings along the path to find myself and my spirituality.
I believe it is probably a pagan path that I am walking, but that is one thing I will find out by learning about both Paganism and myself.

I am drawn to nature and nurturing. I love the smell of the rain and the rumble of thunder. I love the feel of the sun on my skin. I love the sound of the birds singing to and shouting at one another. I want to help people in a way that truly makes a difference. I feel my vocation is to be a midwife. I wish to be like the midwives and wise women of old (in my own way).

A Few Steps In

2008-07-02T10:08:00.005+01:00

Well I thought I would have written in this more by now but I have really been to0 busy.

I'm writing in it now as I'm waiting for someone and I can't concentrate on the work I am supposed to be doing - it's not the easiest of things being all concentration and no fun!

I have got though a lot of Complete Idiot's Guide to Wicca and Witchcraft - by Denise Zimmermann and Katherine. I was reading this when I had my worried about Gods and Goddesses and Iam now not bothered by my worries. I am happy with the stories about the Lord and Lady and don't mind right now what I believe and what I don't about it. Just because I don't feel comfortable with the concept of entities does not mean they do or don't exist and I think I'll find a place I want to settle in with my beliefs in my own time.

I am truly loving my journey along my path - the scenery is beautiful, the birds are singing, the weather is warm and I'm sure I can hear some interesting folk just around the next bend!

Lables

2008-06-18T10:12:00.003+01:00

Why as humans do we feel the need to label ourselves?

By sexuality, religion/spirituality, class, colour, nationality.........

I find a need to pigeonhole myself, as if this will some how help me to know and understand my self. I feel so often that unless I know "what" I am I will never know "who" I am.

I just want to accept myself and know myself and be happy about myself - why do I need these statements in order to do that?

An Open Book

2008-06-18T09:42:00.003+01:00

Today I woke to find the book I'm reading open at a different page to the one I was reading the night before - I have been Reading this book for several days now and every night I leave it open to the page it was on so I can carry on reading in the morning.

The page it was on was the 13 principles and the wiccan rede.

Is this trying to tell me something?

Of Gods and Godesses

2008-06-17T18:43:00.010+01:00

I'm currently reading my way through Complete Idiot's Guide to Wicca and Witchcraft - by Denise Zimmermann and Katherine Gleason.
I'm finding it hard to relate to Gods and Goddesses as entities - I get the "All" part, I'm happy with the Divine within you, me, nature and the cosmos, but I can't feel happy with the Lord and the Lady as separate entities of themselves.

Can I call my path a Pagan Path when I can't get my head round this?